My new diet.

Well today I am starting a new day for me. I had a horrible weekend and think its time for me. I'm not gonna worry about much of anything anymore. Or pretty much what is out of my control.
So today I want to start taking control of my weight. I want to start Weightwatchers. Today was the first day and it went rather well. I am going to use this blog to keep track of what I am doing and how far I have come.

Breakfast:
6 peanut butter crackers   4
coffee 2

Lunch:
Weight watcher mac and cheese 6
6 peanut butter crackers 4
tea 2

Supper:
crockpot beef and peppers 6
rice 3
6 peanut butter crackers 4
1 weight watcher cookie 1

I will edit as I eat since I have more points left.

Up too early!!

Well it is 6am and I am up way to early. Not sure what got me up, but here I am. Bored out of my mind. I could be cleaning but I don't want to wake up everyone eles. Facebook games are getting pretty boring also.
Was at moms yesterday to take Bubba to Pappys to go camping. Just to get some away time from him. Going pretty good so far, don't miss him yet. I think Jake does. He keeps asking when Bubba coming home.
When at moms she had me pick some liliacs from her bush. Brought a couple home and decided to pick some of mine. Oh and the tastykake box behind is what I am eating now with my coffee. Such a peacful morning. Just the sounds of Rono snoring in the living room.

Saturday!

Had a pretty good day today. After sleeping nearly 12 hours of needed sleep, got up and made eggs and bacon. Then we got ready and went to Maw's house and mowed the lawn. Well actually Rolando mowed and I picked up some Boo's poo. Stinky shit. Literally. Then me and Bubba went to goodwill got some clothes and went to get coffee. Spent some time with Mom and had fun.
Came home and Rolando played outside with Jake and me and Bubba went to walmart. I hate that store but it is cheap. Came home and made enchiladas. Asked Rolo if they were good and he said they tasted like the salsa came from a can. I didn't tell him I cheated and used tomatoe sauce instead of fresh tomatoes. Oh well, he should be lucky I made him anything to eat. ;)

Why Me!!!

Well haven't written in my blog for a while. Things have been so busy for me with work. I'm always tired, but thankful I still have a job. Kids have been a handful and working 10 hours a day really takes a toll on my "getting" old body. The past year I am really starting to feel old. Even the grey hair. OMG still not believing the grey hair. Also starting to see more of it.
Bubba got his 3rd marking period report card. Not good at all. Failing all subjects. Really not thinking he will pass the 7th grade. I will be so disappointed if he doesn't pass. I think it shows all the mistakes I have made with him over the years. I really want to be different with him, but sometimes I don't know if I just don't know what to do, or really don't want to try anymore. I don't want to give up but sometimes it seems easyer that way. I am hoping to be different with Jacob, but that one is even starting to take a bad route. I think I should take parenting classes. But then it's like I know how to do it, I just don't follow through with things. I need to make my kids priority #1, which I haven't done in the past. Sometimes I wish I was a stay at home mom and maybe my kids would be better for it. Are they missing out on a good mother and life becuz of my working? I think about that all the time. I think it is time to reevaluate my career (dead end job) and see if it is really worth it.
I am also addicted to facebook. I think them games are taking up too much of my time. I can't seem to get away from them. And it feels like every week a new game is coming out and I just need to play it. So I feel I need to spend hours getting through all these games everyday to keep up with my "online" friends.
So much going on in my head lately. Just don't know how to process it all.
My parents are getting old and need more help. I love helping them, but they are getting too old too fast for me. I just hope they will be around to give me advice on the teenage years that I will soon be going through with my boys. God knows I will need all the advice and help I can get with that.
I am just thankful I have a great husband, healthy kids, great parents, and an awesome friend that keep me sane and sometimes insane.

What a gorgeous weekend.

Well the weekend was so nice. It was nice to just be outside smelling fresh air and hearing the birds sing. Watching the boys play and have fun. Didn't think it would ever come.
Yesterday Allison and Mom came and I actually watched Twilight. I can't believe I watched that movie. But I was more amazed I loved that movie. I can't wait to see New Moon. Edward really is a cutie.
Today got up late and made kids breakfast. Didn't get much done around the house. Went down to moms and me and Pappy went to give Bear a bath. I think she really enjoyed it. It was fun give her a bath. It's almost like giving a human a bath.
Just finished Jake's school project for tomorrow. He had to make a poster of his family and things he likes. Now it's dark and I must get ready for work tomorrow. Not excited about that, but it must be done.

Burned electrical lines!!!! oh my!!!!

Well we came home last night to find a weird burning smell. Well my Rono checked all the heaters and while I watched I was looking at the thermostat. Well saw brown marks on the wall. Come to realize the wires all burned up in the thermostat. Called the electrician to come out. 24 hours later and 192 dollars we got a new thermostat. Wow emergency visits can be very expensive.

Jury Duty

Boy first time ever for jury duty and all I can say is BORING!!!! I had no idea going into it that I could be that bored sitting check to check with 50 people. I did get picked for 2 cases next week. So I guess it is back to work tomorrow.
Atkins is going great. I am on day 8 and down 10 pounds. I feel wonderful. It is easiler than I thought. I did find some recipe sites so next week is gonna be even better. This diet is so good. I have so much energy that I never had before. I am grateful.

So I guess that is another thing to add to my list of grateful.  I am grateful for Dr. Atkins.

Gray hair OMG!!!!

Well I was sitting at work eating my lunch. Then I pull the visor mirror down to check my teeth as I always do before I go back into work to make sure nothing in my teeth. Well the sun was shining in and what do I notice but gray hair around my ears. I started freakin...Anita sitting beside me in her car laughed at me. I was upset. What the hell is happening to me. I think I am getting old. I don't like this.
Well it did get better. Mom wanted Rolo to come down and take the Christmas lights down. Well he never woke up so I told her I would come down. She said no dont waste your gas. I hate when she does that to me becuz I know she needs help. So I said ok and hung up. Then she calls back a minute later and said your Keurig is sitting on the porch. Well that is enough for me to not to listen to her and come down. So I did take the lights down and now I have the most awesomest coffee maker ever. Here is a pic if you don't know what a Keurig is. Thanks Mom you are the best and I love you very much. Thanks for my anniversary gift.

Tomorrow my new start!!

So tomorrow I am starting my new way of eating. Low-carb. I have ALOT of weight to lose. I have tried many different kinds of diets which none worked for me. Or should I say I never worked them for me. But now is different. I have never been this heavy and this time I can really feel it. My feet my legs especially my back. I stand at work in pain all day long. I ask myself what have I done. Well it is time to make that change. I bought all the nessecary good stuff at the store and I am ready. So I will start this way of eating tomorrow and start the new me.

I also want this year to be more positive than others. So I want to make a list of things I am grateful for in my life.

1. My health...not at the best right now and I know I complain but I'm grateful that I can walk and do normal thing.s
2. My kids...again alot of work needed there but they are healthy and I love them.
3. My mom and Resh...they mean the world to me and is always there for me.

The list is longer and I will post more in other posts that way I can keep reflecting on the things I am grateful for.

A few days with my brother

It has been a good week with Allen who came from Pittsburgh for the holidays. We laughed and talked about old times like we always do. It is always good for me to get with him a least once a year and just reconnect with him. He means the world to me.
Things have been going pretty good around here with him here. The boys have been getting along rather well. Alot of xbox playing and rock band. It is loads of fun with Allen playing the drums, Bubba playing the guitar and me with my angelic voice singing to the songs. It was great.
I did get down in the scrap room and did one page tonight, with Jake right along beside me doing his skills also. I'm trying to get some old pics out of the way so I did one of halloween last year.

My first 2 pages of the year.

Well I haven't scrapbooked for a while. But with the kids back to school and less than a week to go back to work I thought I would venture downstairs and see what I can come up with. I've been wanting to get down there since my mom for christmas got me a weekend getaway with her to a crop. I can't wait. Here's the 2 pages I came up with.

My resolutions for the year 2010!!!!

I hate to make resolutions for the new year. I never stick with them. This year I will make them again and see what happens. 1. Number one on the list is just take better care of myself. I have let so many people and things get in my way of living a healthy life, and I am just sick of being sick and tired all the time. I need to put other peoples needs aside sometimes and take care of mine. Maybe then I can better take care of theirs. 2. My children are suffering from my troubles and my mistakes along the way. I am hoping to make their lives better for the future. I don't know yet how I am gonna do that but I will defintaley give it my 100%. 3. Be a better wife to my husband. I remember my friend telling me long ago "would you wanna be married to you". That has stuck with me and my answer is no. I know having bipolar depression doesn't always help, but I am determined to make my familys life better. 4. I want to be a more spirtual person. I never really went to church but I know God is always with me. Maybe,  just maybe if I put this resolution first all my other resolutions would fall into place. Something to think about.