Bubba got his 3rd marking period report card. Not good at all. Failing all subjects. Really not thinking he will pass the 7th grade. I will be so disappointed if he doesn't pass. I think it shows all the mistakes I have made with him over the years. I really want to be different with him, but sometimes I don't know if I just don't know what to do, or really don't want to try anymore. I don't want to give up but sometimes it seems easyer that way. I am hoping to be different with Jacob, but that one is even starting to take a bad route. I think I should take parenting classes. But then it's like I know how to do it, I just don't follow through with things. I need to make my kids priority #1, which I haven't done in the past. Sometimes I wish I was a stay at home mom and maybe my kids would be better for it. Are they missing out on a good mother and life becuz of my working? I think about that all the time. I think it is time to reevaluate my career (dead end job) and see if it is really worth it.
I am also addicted to facebook. I think them games are taking up too much of my time. I can't seem to get away from them. And it feels like every week a new game is coming out and I just need to play it. So I feel I need to spend hours getting through all these games everyday to keep up with my "online" friends.
So much going on in my head lately. Just don't know how to process it all.
My parents are getting old and need more help. I love helping them, but they are getting too old too fast for me. I just hope they will be around to give me advice on the teenage years that I will soon be going through with my boys. God knows I will need all the advice and help I can get with that.
I am just thankful I have a great husband, healthy kids, great parents, and an awesome friend that keep me sane and sometimes insane.
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